I was one of the broken people that loved and related to Creep. It felt very personal, as though Albert Hammond looked into my heart and wrote what he saw. I can see the arguments about it being about trying to fit in, to look and be like the image portrayed by media in society, and anorexia. The love gone bad theories, and the effects of time on relationships. I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong. Like art, it means what it means to people because it invokes a response within. That's what makes it great. I used to relate because of my own individual brokenness, Now it reminds of where I used to be and have been brought out of. I still love the song. But recently I heard it, and it hit me that what made this song sad is also what brings me joy today.
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
...
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I wish I was special
You're so {written radio edit}' special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
chorus
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
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The places I went trying to fill the God-shaped hole in my heart with anything and everything besides God were ugly and deadly and heartbreaking. And while I know this song wasn't written about God and that this was not the writer's intent, I came to a place of surrender where I cried out to my Heavenly Daddy and decided that I no longer needed control if someone else had to be in control to fix things and give me the rest. I wanted to be free. I told God sincerely Whatever makes You happy. Whatever You want.
My life changed. The transformation from the creep, the weirdo, the caterpillar, into the beautiful butterfly, the perfect, righteous, child of God began to show in my life. I am no longer ashamed of who and what I am. I can look people in the eye again. I can hold my head up. I can look the God of all creation in the eye. I don't sit in fear of every good situation and relationship falling apart, because I am not pretending to be someone I'm not, I'm not trying to force myself into a mold. I don't fear that the truth that I don't belong will be discovered. I do belong. I'm not perfect or beautiful like God. But He's making me into someone like Him. No matter who does or doesn't value me in my life, my Creator highly values me. I don't deserve to be in relationship with Him or with any of the people He's brought into my life, but that's where I belong. I don't have a perfect body or a perfect soul, but one day, on the other side of eternity, I will. People may still come and go, they may still run away, but God will never leave me, forsake me or reject me. He set me free from the chains, addictions and the need to fit in and have approval from others at any cost. He can and will do the same for you if you let Him. I may still have a touch of the weirdo within, but the creep is dead and gone. In His place is a unique and beautiful child of God, and I know what I'm doing here. There is a solution.
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